So, I'm in Phil for more than a month now, and I've been doing nothing but mostly attending modelling interviews, castings, and go-sees.
Jobs here are limited coz of that flood. Oops, FLOODS. And as you all know, Phil is proclaimed as a state of calamity already.
Plus, agents here are the most gay, dramatic, demanding, piss-in-ur-pants shiteous people I've ever met.
I've learned some new modelling principles recently:

• LIE. Its all an illusion. Clients will gladly take you as long as you say your 5'9". As long as you look 5'9". And you wont be screwed anyway, even if they measure you. They're too busy to care.
• They dont give a fig about your weight. It's all about the right proportions.
• Agencies who want to represent you are very particular about you signing an exclusive contract with them. Meaning, other agencies will not be able to represent you. This is a method they use to have complete control over the model. If you break the contract and join other agencies, especially their main competitors, they will most likely sue you and the agency. And it gets even worse if you use their pictures as your comp card in the new agency.
  
• Models who dont thoroughly read their contracts and dont know the terms, and their agency ain't marketing them, well.. too bad for them.
• Favoritism among the models and their booker is not uncommon.
• Castings are HELL. You have to compete with many models. Be criticized head-to-toe. (My legs are always being looked at. I always tell them I just recently had an allergic reaction. They just pass it off. Make-up artists take care of them later.) Agencies can market the model, but it's all up to her/him to get the job.
• Castings are usually held in one place. Its even worse if you have two or more castings in one day, you have to go back and forth between places. And if they call you back, you have to go back to the place and be looked at again. Sometimes, I get the impression that clients entertain themselves by looking out their windows at the models who change from their slippers and stilletos on the streets.
• Castings have a time slot. If you're late, then you're out.
  
• There's such a thing as model loans: mother agencies who lend models to other agencies for an indefinite period of time. I had this thing once, Imodels looking for models who can go to Hong Kong to be represented at an agency there for 2 months. Sadly, my visa cant let me go out of the country for that long.
• Mother agencies are the agencies who you originally have a contract with.
  
• If a model has an exclusive contract with an agency, its better for the person to stay in the country where the agency's located at. This is a big problem for me, am staying in Malaysia, my agency's in Singapore. I've turned down a lot of castings. And clients dont usually take international models and pay extra for their accomodation if they dont have much experience and their portfolios not that impressive.
  
• Anything that makes a model different, makes the model stand out. Common equals boring. Boring doesnt do much advertising. Not much advertising doesnt promote the clients' products much. So....
• An accent is a plus. If you dont have one, invent one.
  

The result of me being isolated progressively:

one fine evening, a not-so-typical conversation between G and that crazygeneouslyhomogenic woman. (aka. me)

Princess says:
you're staying there?
Alexandra Nicole says:
no way!
Princess says:
hahah why not?
Alexandra Nicole says:
noooooooooooooo
actually, i kinda like it here already
but no
i cant stay in my cousins house forever
she's going to the states to work next year
so that means i have to stay at my aunts house
which will be the death of me.
u think i can earn enough for pcc next year if i work?
how much is it again?
7k?
PCC! pls!! i'll take them! even if i have to wear long skirts for 4 years and not listen to modern music!
Princess says:
:)
Alexandra Nicole says:
see how much i talk??? am losing my mind!!!
Princess says:
yep
you just need 7000 first
Alexandra Nicole says:
and then, the rest?
7k for A YEAR right?
Princess says:
work for it? hope your dad and mom will supply some
yes
Alexandra Nicole says:
not 7k PER SEM?
Princess says:
nonono
Alexandra Nicole says:
U SURE!!
??
Princess says:
its 4500 a semester
VERY SURE.
Alexandra Nicole says:
u sure they supply jobs there?
Princess says:
they say you shouldnt expect to pay your fees by getting a job
you wont get a job automatically
Alexandra Nicole says:
waht if i earn 7k! go to pcc! after that one year, i dont have enough to pay for the next three years?!?!!?
:/
thats my answer right there
Princess says:
im pretty sure if you do well in ur studies, they'll help you
or maybe you could get a loan there.
its not impossible, nicole.
Alexandra Nicole says:
i cant guarantee my behaviour and academics will be exemplary
Princess says:
then i wouldnt suggest you go
Alexandra Nicole says:
its not impossible, but the horrible consequences are not impossible either
Princess says:
unless you plan on going by all the rules there, dont go
Alexandra Nicole says:
my life is so adventourous!!!!! PS TELL JESUS I HAD ENOUGH FUN ALREADY. I WANT A SANE LIFE NOW.
Princess says:
haha
Alexandra Nicole says:
anything out of here. i'll eat pork for a year there if thats waht they;re offering
Princess says:
hahahaha
ok
:)
ill pray
lol
Alexandra Nicole says:
:(
Princess says:
what?
i dont know what else to do
i wish you'd come back here nicole
Alexandra Nicole says:
i am coming back there!!!
I AM!!
november!!
Princess says:
yay
you can come for awards night
pastor shirley wants you to join us
:)
Alexandra Nicole says:
:(
no
Princess says:
no frowns!!
why not?!!
Alexandra Nicole says:
coz i dont have an award
AHHAHAAHAHHA
\
Princess says:
lol
Alexandra Nicole says:
grace
Princess says:
you're gonna join us for the grad ceremony i think
Alexandra Nicole says:
i think am gonna go crazy here. i have been speaking to the wall this morning
no, i cant take that
i am not going!!!!
Princess says:
why?!
Alexandra Nicole says:
because i have always wanted to graduate with u guys!!
Princess says:
and?!
Alexandra Nicole says:
and i cant go!! because ur all graduating and am not
!!!!
NO
are u all gonna wear those
..
wat do u call those?
those hats? caps? graduation things?
u have been speaking to pastor shirley?
HOW IS PASTOR SHIRLEY???
I MISS PASTOR SHIRLEY!!!!
PASTOR SHIRLEY!!
Princess says:
yea we'll wear them
yes ive been speaking to her
she's fine
=]
Alexandra Nicole says:
:(
Princess says:
sigh
nicole!
stop the frowns
Alexandra Nicole says:
GAH!
Princess says:
gah you!!
Alexandra Nicole says:
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(((::(
Princess says:
haha
Alexandra Nicole says:
ahahahah!!
: ( (:
AHAHHAAH!
( : : : :
Princess says:
oh lord
lol
Alexandra Nicole says:
i went to a catholic church this sunday
with my cousin
Princess says:
wtf
WHY
Alexandra Nicole says:
i wanted to see wats the difference
OH NOES!!
i will not be wavered by false doctrines!!!
Princess says:
haha
i hope not
Alexandra Nicole says:
i am saved by GRACE and by GRACE alone!!
see!!! another reason to take me out of here!!
Princess says:
hahaa
Alexandra Nicole says:
i am still a baby Christian!! still nurtured by milk!!
Princess says:
hahaha
Alexandra Nicole says:
i am hazardousfully exposed to the Philippines imminent Catholic church!
Princess says:
why do you know all these things
hahahahahha
Alexandra Nicole says:
and u know me!!!! i am very easily gullible!!
Princess says:
i didnt know u actually listened in church
lol
GET OUT OF THERE
Alexandra Nicole says:
i needed to rant!! the wall doesnt speak back!!
know all wat things?!!!!!!!!
Princess says:
hahaha
bible scriptures
Alexandra Nicole says:
the Lord supplies me with wisdom!
Princess says:
haha
Alexandra Nicole says:
if it werent for the Lord, i would have been being treated in a mental psychiatric pysiologistic hospital right now and talking to more walls!?!?!
Princess says:
yes
quite possible
Alexandra Nicole says:
*pants like a dog
Princess says:
LOL
i miss you!!
you havent changed
Alexandra Nicole says:
will not! and will not ever ever!
i need to get out of here
need some friends!!
:(
omg
i need sleep
i hvata go
Princess says:
okay
take care! night night
no more catholic churches.





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my dear readers.
i couldnt quite say this enough. but i am seriously losing my sanity. as not as ever before.

KC told me to update my blog.

Sigh. Am LLeyyzziee.

OKKK. I just got done reading all your messages.
Am trying not to cry. Ha.

Before the lovely messages, I just wanna THANK GOD for bringing me here. I could not imagine what would have happened to me if I have made the decision to not come here 2 and a half years ago. Would I have been a different person? Would I have been saved? If I had died, would I be in heaven? Would I have met all these generous, real people?.. who I've grown close to soo much it hurts just to think of saying good-bye to them.

I'm not actually saying good-bye, just see you soon, I'll be back before long. Time flies.

God has a will for everything. God willed for me to come to this country and to get to know Him better. I've grown close to the Lord and knew much about Him, and I dont regret my time here coz I know its not wasted. For those who know me, if you still remember what I was like 2 years ago, can you believe how much I changed? Because I cant. God has worked a miracle in my life. And am so grateful for it.
I'll keep praying that He'll keep working miracles in everyone's lives, and I know He will. If you're still alive, it's not too late to seek the Lord. He will changed you. Make your life better. You will have the Holy Spirit in you that will give you peace that no other god can give. The Lord loves those who seek Him, and doesnt turn His back on anyone.

Ok. I need to stop. Am tearing up.


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Great. I just got news from Lizibeth that there's a huge flood in Manila, right where AM GOING.
Am getting freaked out. Just saw vids on YouTube and its creepy. Ha. Maybe the rapture is coming. :D


Anyways, the messages:

Pastor Han: THANKS YOU SO SO MUCH! Thank you for saving my soul. I am hoping that I could influence others and lead them to the Lord too.

LiziHan: I love you much much. Thanks for the sleepovers. And thanks for putting up with all my annoying booger talk. Ha. Sorry for messing up your room for the last time.

Grace: Thanks for being the first one to talk to me about Jesus. I love you much. And i'll miss your room.

Brandon: Your message is very endearing. :( I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!

Bro. Bill: Thanks for the $. First time I saw Benjamin Franklin up close. Oh wait, its Jackson.

Aunty Dancy & Aunty Helen: You two are the bomb!! The best mommies ever.

KC: I made your stupid mac and cheese and all you wrote on the card was "rooooccckkkeeetttmmmaaaiiillll". LuL.

Seth: Hi too.

Kamilla: Thanks for everything babe. You gave me the most hugs. I wish you all the best in PCC. Here's a french kiss: Smooch*.

(Leaving in an hour, have to hurry this up)

Gene: Daddy Geniee!!! Am so proud of you! And thanks for coming alright? I'll miss the late nights much much!!

Calebssss: I know we're not that close too. But I'll miss you anyway! Calebsssssssssssss.

BJ: You know what we talked about this morning. haha.

Isabelle: Your chocolates were so deliciousiso! Cant wait to see what you'll look like 5 years from now. You're gonna be one hot babe. ;)

J: .. I dont like you anymore. I gave up on you already. You bore me. Byebye!! Haha.

Tim: .. :)

and


Pastor Han's mom: Pls smile more.


I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!! SEE U SOON. <3 <3

Its hard to get attached to people and leave them behind. Again.

Back to Phil, I am gonna be inclined to snob everyone, be indifferent, not have a boyfriend. Just not get too.... attached.

Fuck it everyone starts to hate me.